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Psalm 32:1-2

 
 
Psalm 32 Of David. A maskil.
“Blessed is he whose transgressions are forgiven, whose sins are covered.”
[Praise you, Lord God, the Great and Holy One, that you have provided forgiveness for my many sins, wiping clean the record of my multitude of transgressions, including the ones to come.
I thank you, with all my heart, that you took me from being a correctly condemned criminal to being a sovereignly saved son, dearly loved, doted on and delighted in. I praise you for qualifying me to be a partaker of the inheritance of the Saints in the Kingdom of Light–when what I actually deserved was to be cast out into eternal darkness.
What a wonder to be cleansed, transformed, adopted, accepted and delighted in–all contrary to what I actually should have been given! You are truly the God of Grace, the King of Kindness and the Lord of Love.]
Psalm 32:2 “Blessed is the man whose sin the LORD does not count against him and in whose spirit is no deceit.”
[Lord Jesus, I praise you that you not only erased my guilt, taking it upon yourself, but that you consistently work in me to bring transparency, making my spirit one of truth, instead of deceit.
My soul certainly has deceit—I do not like my sin being exposed, even to myself, and naturally seek to cover it up. And there is much hidden there that I don’t even know yet, but I know enough to confess consistently to you: that it is natural for me to be selfish and impatient, impolite and curt, proud and negative, thoughtless and overly focused on self–among many other sins.
Praise you, Lord, that your Spirit works in my spirit and soul to change all this, making me aware of what is wrong so I can abandon it, and what is right, so I can embrace it.
Help me to stand in ever-growing awe of your greatness and goodness, of the unceasing, ever-cleansing flow of grace from your heart, and to fear you, not man.
 
Help me today to follow the leading of your Spirit and to be wise and effective for you, basking in the truth that you will never count my sin against me and that you are unceasingly at work to move me forward in sanctification. I thank you now for what you will do today, whether it be pleasant or painful, trusting you to do and bring what is best.
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Psalm 31:23-24

 
Psalm 31:23 “Love the LORD, all his saints! The LORD preserves the faithful,”
[There are an infinite number of reasons to love you, LORD Yahweh! Not the least of which is your faithfulness to your Word, to your promises, to your Character, to your love. We can be sure that whatever you allow into our lives, you have a plan, a purpose and will give provision and carry us through.
Because you are faithful, Lord Jesus, you preserve, protect and deliver those who are faithful, who trust in you, who walk in awe of you, in obedience to your desires, living in the light of your great and holy presence. “The angel of the Lord encamps around those who fear him and delivers them” (Ps. 34:7).]
“but the proud he pays back in full.”
[You will act against those who are proud–including against me if I need it. I praise you, Lord Jesus, that as the Good Shepherd you do rebuke us, correct us, chasten us and punish us when needed to get our attention. I praise you, Lord God, for your working in every way, for your guidance in all things.
Thank you that you will deal with those who, in pride, act against your children, against your Word, against Truth. Help us to reject pride, to be humble before you, not listening to our hearts, but to you.]
Psalm 31:24 “Be strong and take heart, all you who hope in the LORD.”
[When our hope is in you, the Time Beginner, the Star-breather, the Dawn-bringer, the History Ender, we can be strong and encouraged, for you, Lord God, are powerful and good and wise and it is your nature to love.
When my heart is down, discouraged and disappointed, I can find my hope in you, the great and glorious God whose power is immeasurable, whose might is eternal, whose strength is unending, whose love guides all you do: “My soul, find rest in God alone, for my hope comes from him” (Ps. 62:5).
To hope in you is wisdom, to trust you is good, to obey you is freedom, to lift our souls to you is joy.
 
Praise be to you, Lord God for what you will do today in the plans and events before me. I choose to trust you, honor you and worship you. Be glorified in my life today.]
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The Story of Arrests and Trial Continues

The next day, the hours in the cell crept by slowly. We prayed together and sang some—but the police didn’t like that—and we slept.
That night the police brought in more people, including our Korean partner and an older German believer who was not associated with any of us. He had been walking around downtown wearing a sign, calling people to Jesus.
We found out later that there had been fifty-four arrests in nine cities, most of them made using Harry’s address book. Thankfully no one recanted this time, in spite of the pressure applied.
The next day I was again taken for questioning. The police put a chart in front of me showing the leaders of each work in the nine cities, with titles for each. I had read about this categorization of us in the newspapers, so did not hesitate to confirm that these people worked there.
Later the police hung this chart in their terrorist division along with those of the groups like the PKK and Hezbollah. They considered us as dangerous as these other groups, even though there were only about two hundred of us in the whole country of sixty-five million, and we had no weapons and no political aspirations.
Actually, the police were right; we were more dangerous than those other groups, for the power of God was working through us to bring light into the darkness of Islam.
 
For the whole time we were jailed, Barbara and the other wives had no word of what was happening. However, they had contacted their embassies, and the US Consul was busy at work behind the scenes. By the afternoon of the third day, the Consul had convinced the police to let us go.
It is not an easy process to get out of jail. We first had to sign statements that we were treated well. Then we were driven to a hospital where doctors examined us and signed a report that we had no signs of torture. Then, finally, in the evening we were driven to the closest police station and released.
I was glad to get back home, and my family was happy to have me. It had been a pretty stressful time for all of us, for different reasons. But there wasn’t any opportunity to withdraw and recover.
The police had told us that we were being released because of lack of evidence. It was nice to go free, but using that reason left us open to the threat of being arrested again if they got more evidence. So although we knew this was not the end of the adventure, little did we know that we had just begun the journey into harassment.
When I returned to work the next day, the director called me into his office.
“I am really sorry to tell you that I must fire you,” he said. “The police came yesterday and told me that if I didn’t fire you they would make my life miserable.
“I like you and your teaching, but I can’t put my career and family on the line for you.” He looked genuinely sad.
“I understand,” I said, “and I wouldn’t want you to risk anything for me.” We shook hands and I left.
In one sense I was happy. The amount of time I had to give to this job had made it harder to do justice to my other two full time jobs: being field leader for more than forty people, and being one of the lead elders in the church plant.
I had talked about quitting my teaching job a number of times, but Barbara had always encouraged me to stay until the Lord made it clear I should leave. Well, this was pretty clear.
Then we got news that the German school would no longer allow us as a fellowship to meet there. It seems they had had a visit from the police also and were given the worse possible picture of us as a terrorist group.
After this, we received a notice from a man, saying he had bought our apartment and was giving us a week to move out. Although this had nothing to do with our arrests, it was the hardest blow—one coordinated by the devil. To be attacked on all sides from without was painful, but when you have your base snatched from under you, that is really difficult.
We praised God for this, however, asked for His help, and I immediately began looking for a place to move to. However, at that time of the year there were few possibilities, for most people move after school is out in June.
I called the real estate agent representing the new owner and he came to talk with us. After spending half an hour with us, he said, “Excuse me, may I use your phone? I need to make a call.”
He went out in the hall and we heard him say, “There is no way we can throw these people out. They are foreigners, fine people. Let’s allow them to stay until you can resell the apartment.”
The owner agreed! We could now praise God again, this time after receiving His wonderful answer.
I was not the only one with fall-out. Orin was again shamed before his family. At work he was ostracized and demoted. His trips to do construction inspection, which had provided him with extra pay, were taken from him. This, however, did not stop him from pressing on in his faith.
Harry and Ivan, who had moved up to the Black Sea Coast with a German business partner, had also been arrested, along with the German. At the end of their interrogation, instead of being released until their next hearing, the judge put all three of them in prison. They remained there until their trial date three months later. The Black Sea Coast tended to be more nationalistic and religiously conservative, so it was no surprise that they were treated more harshly when identified as believers.
My being fired was followed by another shock. In May the prosecuting attorney had decided he had enough evidence after all and was putting all of us who lived in the capital city on trial.
We were being charged with “doing propaganda,” a serious crime under local law. This meant we were accused of seeking to achieve political goals that were subversive and illegal. The prosecuting attorney was asking for a seven-year prison sentence for each of us.
Jul, Woohan and I met with some other workers to discuss what to do. Obviously this was too serious a charge to go without a lawyer, or with an unqualified one. The suggestion was made to hire the high profile lawyer who had won a number of cases for the Jehovah’s Witnesses.
He said he would defend us—for $30,000! We actually considered hiring him and put out the word for financial help. However, after prayer and further talk we saw that this was trusting in a clever lawyer, not in God. So we spent further time in prayer for guidance.
Jul had an English student who had just finished law school, a bright fellow who was willing to stick his neck out to defend us. He also suggested that one of his professors, a well known legal expert, should write a paper laying out the legal framework for our position.
We all agreed this was a better route to follow, even though the price for the paper was a bit steep, $5000. One thing that convinced us was that this paper would be useful to us in ways that went beyond just this trial.
Our first hearing came up in May. The twelve of us were ushered into a dark, cavernous courtroom, our footsteps echoing off the high ceiling. We were told to sit in the box for the accused. At the front of the room and seated high above us were the three judges. They looked down at us and smiled, chatting among themselves.
First they took our personal information. It was quite difficult for the stenographer to get down the names of the fathers and mothers of the Korean, Swedish, English, German and American defendants!
Then the charges were read “Doing propaganda with political intent,” to which we all pleaded, “Not guilty.” Our lawyer handed the court clerk his defense and the paper from his professor. A date was set in July for the second hearing and we were dismissed.
As we filed out, then next defendant was led in, a rough looking man wrapped in chains fastened with a padlock, and accompanied by four guards with sub-machine guns! He was obviously a dangerous character.
Now we understood why the judges had smiled when they saw us. We looked like a flock of little sheep compared to the typical defendants that were tried in this courtroom for “severe penalty crimes.”
 
On the July morning of our next hearing a good number of our fellow workers and other believers gathered in the court building to show us support while we waited in the hall to be called into the court room.
We were all in good spirits, feeling very upbeat and positive. Barbara said it felt like a holiday. Months later when we were able to get some of our back mail we found out why.
Our group had called for a worldwide day of prayer and fasting for us on this date. The Lord was answering their prayers and giving us joy in the midst of pressure.
When our turn came, we filed in and sat in the defendants’ box. After the call to order, the prosecuting attorney stood up.
“I have concluded that these people have done nothing outside of the framework of the law, ” he said. We looked at each other in surprise. This was the man who opened this case against us!
He continued. “Under the law they have the right to choose a religion, to learn about their new religion, to form a congregation, to worship together and to propagate their religion. Therefore I recommend they be declared not guilty.”
The judges conferred with each other and then declared the case closed. We walked out like people in a dream. Not only had we been protected, but our rights were clearly stated in a legal court document.
This was a great answer to our prayer for God to give us conditions conducive to the spread of the gospel. The whole experience seemed to break the spirit of fear that had hung so long over all the believers.
In addition, now we knew what it was like to be jailed, unjustly accused, fired and maligned in the papers–and it wasn’t so bad! The court decision gave the believers much more certainty concerning the legality of what they were doing and this opened a new era for us.
 
Picture, after our release, Barbara with one of th elocal women who was also “inside” with us.
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Psalm 105:3

“Glory in his holy name; let the hearts of those who seek the LORD rejoice!” Psalm 105:3
 
These are commands, giving us opportunities to choose between obedience in praise, or rebellion in complaining. And we CAN obey in praise, not because of our situations, our strength of will or our freedom of choice, but because of who YOU are, Lord Jesus.
 
You are the God of Glory, the King of kindness, the Potentate of power, Lord of Love, Ruler of Righteousness, Paragon of Perfection, Judge of Justice, Light of life, Wonder of the world and Savior of sinners, especially of all those who believe.
 
You are the Focus of eternity, the Fulfiller of prophecy, the Finisher of time, the Final Solution to sin and evil. In you all comes together, all holds together, all works together. In spite of its twisted and cursed condition, the universe continues to operate as you hold the stars in their places, the planets in their orbits, the atoms in their makeup, the details of our lives in line, the timing of events in sequence and the tide of evil in check.
You are the One to rejoice in, the One to glory in, the One to rest in. What a privilege, what a possibility, what a power, to be able to choose to praise you in and for all, to glorify you, thank you and revel in you at all times.
 
“Blessed are those who have learned to acclaim you, who walk in your presence, ever praising your name” (Ps. 89:15). To acclaim you, to acknowledge your presence and power in all that happens–this is a wondrous privilege we can practice every day. In our weakness, we can seek your strength; in our ignorance we can seek your knowledge; in our foolishness we can seek your wisdom; in our smallness we can seek your great presence.
 
You, Lord Jesus, are truly worthy of worship, of glory, of honor. We exalt you today by choosing to prolifically praise you, to seek you and your strength in persistent prayer, to practice your presence in our thoughts and attitudes, to honor you in our words and work.
 
Prayer: “May you be richly, powerfully, visibly exalted in my life today as I choose to live for your glory by praising you in all. Amen.”
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Psalm 31:21-22

 
 
Psalm 31:21 “Praise be to the LORD, for he showed his wonderful love to me when I was in a besieged city.”
[More than once David was trapped in a city (1 Sam. 23:7-13), but each time, in the midst of David’s danger, you, Lord, defended him, you acted to keep him safe when all seemed lost, when he appeared to have no way out.
So you do with us, when we are trapped by tragedy or loss, difficulty or destruction (such as Barbara’s present depression), negativity and evil, you are there, and you show us your wonderful love by giving us a way out. To paraphrase Psalm 46:5, God is within us, we will not fall, He promises to help us at break of day–that is, after the longest, coldest part of the night.
You are the God of hope, who stands ready to “fill us with all joy and peace as we trust in you so that our lives can overflow with hope by the power of the Holy Spirit” (Rom. 15:13). Help us to trust before your help comes.]
Psalm 31:22 “In my alarm I said, ‘I am cut off from your sight!’ Yet you heard my cry for mercy when I called to you for help.”
[What seems to be an impossible situation for us is changed when we remember that you are there, Lord, that you are acting behind the scenes and will do what is best. I think of the times we were threatened with expulsion from the country we were working in, but you heard our cry for mercy, Lord, and kept us there for many years more, in spite of the opposition and plans of high ranking men.
You always are prepared to act at the right time, and you often give us the privilege of going by faith for a while, believing you when we have no outward evidence, and thereby giving you greater glory before all.
 
Help us to do that daily obeying, your call to:”Sacrifice thank offerings to God, fulfill your vows to the Most High, and call on me in the day of trouble; I will deliver you, and you will honor me” (Ps. 50:14,15).]
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Psalm 31:19-20

 
 
Psalm 31:19 “How great is your goodness, which you have stored up for those who fear you,”
 
[“Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, who has blessed us with ALL spiritual blessings in heavenly places in Christ Jesus” (Eph. 1:3).
 
You, O Lord, know the future and all that will come; you know what is needed for us to stand, and have prepared a rich supply of grace for us. Your one requirement is that we trust you–fear you, stand in awe of you–rather than fear men who speak loudly and destructively.]
 
“How great is your goodness…which you bestow in the sight of men on those who take refuge in you.”
 
[As we hide ourselves in you, Lord, you bless us clearly, publicly, visibly. You give grace and peace, you supply our needs, you carry us through difficulties, you protect us from danger (how often have you preserved me in near accidents on the road), you empower us to be more than conquerors rather than just coping.
 
We can hide in you mainly through thinking the truth of your Word and responding in praise and thanksgiving for what you allow. I give you praise now for your wisdom and goodness as you go before to guide, protect and deliver.]
 
Psalm 31:20 “In the shelter of your presence you hide them from the intrigues of men; in your dwelling you keep them safe from accusing tongues.”
 
[To others we may appear to be defenseless and totally vulnerable, but in your unseen presence we are sheltered and shielded. Our responsibility is to stay in your presence, in your refuge of truth, in your Word of wisdom: “He who dwells in the shelter of the Most High will rest in the shadow of the Almighty” (Ps. 91:1).
 
This means that, in the midst of much pressure, we can trust you, praise you and respond to evil with what we know to be right: forgiving, returning good for hurt, resting in the truth that you are doing good in what appears to be bad.
 
Then, because you delight in us, in your mighty power you will protect us, work to guide and direct us and bring us out into a spacious place. To you be glory and honor, Lord for your goodness, power and love. Help me to dwell in them, rest in them and rejoice in them.]
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Psalm 31:17-18

 
Psalm 31:17 “Let me not be put to shame, O LORD, for I have cried out to you;”
[You, O Lord, desire honor for us, not shame: “As God’s chosen people, holy and dearly loved,” “…my salvation and honor depend on God, my mighty rock and refuge” (Col. 3:12, Ps. 62:7).
So we can be confident that, as we bow before you and live for you, you will act in your faithfulness, in your goodness, and in your kindness to save us from shame.
 
Help us to have Jesus’ attitude, “For the joy that was set before him, he endured the cross, despising the shame…” (Heb. 12:2] I praise you now for how you will act in the difficult situations before me to protect me from shame and bring both resolution and honor.]
Psalm 31:17b,18 “but let the wicked be put to shame and lie silent in the grave. Let their lying lips be silenced, for with pride and contempt they speak arrogantly against the righteous.”
[There are so many lies and false accusations uttered these days against followers of Jesus–even to the point of calling us terrorists! Doing good is denigrated; committing evil is exalted. I praise you, Lord, that in the midst of this, you are at work and will use the attacks of the enemy to advance your Kingdom.
And I thank you for your guidance on how to respond to these verbal attacks. Instead of feeling sorry for ourselves and being consumed with anger, frustration and discouragement, you call us to “delight in weaknesses, hardships, INSULTS, persecutions and difficulties, for when I am weak, then I am strong” (2 Cor. 12:10). We can, in humility, in your perspective, shrug off the shame people want to put on us, walking instead in the light of the honor you heap on us as your beloved children.
Praise you, Lord, that these situations are opportunities to give you glory through trust, praise and doing good to those who do evil to us. May we so walk in faith, bringing you great honor before all the unseen hosts.]
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Psalm 31:15-16

Psalm 31:15 “My times are in your hands;”
 
[A strong declaration of God’s great powers, of His sovereignty at work–and of our weakness. We cannot control our times, our lives or the events that come into them, but God actively, intimately and lovingly works to bring to us what is best for us–both in the big picture and in the tiny details. This is a further reason to trust Him fully through praise before any answer to our cry comes.
 
As it says in Psalm 33:18-20 “…the eyes of the LORD are on those who fear him, on those whose hope is in his unfailing love, to deliver them from death and keep them alive in famine. We wait in hope for the LORD; he is our help and our shield.”]
 
Psalm 31:15b-16, “deliver me from my enemies and from those who pursue me. Let your face shine on your servant; save me in your unfailing love.”
 
[David unwaveringly looks to the right place, to the right One for help, and for the right reason: God’s unfailing love. He is confident that God is going to answer. As David said in Psalm 27:13-14 “I am still confident of this: I will see the goodness of the LORD in the land of the living. Wait for the LORD; be strong and take heart and wait for the LORD.”
 
[And David consistently saw God’s protection and provision. He was in dozens, if not hundreds of battles, with no mention of ever being wounded. And he died of old age in his bed, having seen God’s deliverance all through his life.
 
Praise you, Lord God, that no matter how bad things appear, you are going to bring positive and constructive happenings out of them as we join you in faith.
 
I give thanks, Lord God, for your care and protection, your grace-filled help in each difficulty, and for your allowing challenges into our lives to deepen, mature and equip us.
 
Help us to keep our eyes on you this day. I bow before you, O Lord God, wanting to give you the honor due your Name by offering the sacrifice of thanksgiving in all.]
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Psalm 31:

Psalm 31:9 “Be merciful to me, O LORD, for I am in distress;”
 
[You, Lord, are the One I should flee to immediately when anxiety and fear, worry and distress strike, for you alone have the power to do something about it.
 
You are the mighty and merciful One, you are gracious and good, you are wise and wonderful. Praise you for how you will help us in our situations, few of which could be more distressing than David’s, which he describes in the verses below. His distress involved every area of his life, emotional and physical, social and positional:]
 
Psalm 31:9b-12 “my eyes grow weak with sorrow, my soul and my body with grief. My life is consumed by anguish and my years by groaning; my strength fails because of my affliction, and my bones grow weak. Because of all my enemies, I am the utter contempt of my neighbors; I am a dread to my friends—those who see me on the street flee from me. I am forgotten by them as though I were dead;”
 
[What a devastating picture of severe distress, but allowed by you, Lord, for you were at work through it, doing significant things in David’s life. And so you are at work in our lives as we move into and through difficult times. In these we can trust you, no matter how painful they may be, as David goes on to describe.]
 
Psalm 31:12b-13 “I have become like broken pottery. For I hear the slander of many; there is terror on every side; they conspire against me and plot to take my life.”
 
[David was weak and vulnerable, surrounded by threats, assaulted by fears and attacked by men, in real danger of death. He was in the fire. It looks bad. However, the next words, words of choice, make all the difference:]
 
Psalm 31:14 “BUT I trust in you, O LORD;”
 
[In spite of his circumstances, in spite of how he felt, in spite of the very real dangers, in spite of getting no answers yet, David makes the choice to trust in Jehovah, the great and holy God, to expect help from Him based on His perfect character and wide wisdom.
 
In using the word “BUT,” David chooses to reject the natural tendency to let his feelings, thoughts and circumstances rule him, saying instead,]
 
“I say, ‘You are my God.’”
 
[He affirms that the Lord is his God, his final authority. This is looking away from the seen to the unseen. It is a declaration that Jesus is David’s final authority and David is going to trust Him and obey Him, not feelings; he chooses spiritual facts over fear. David is submitting his intellect and perceptions to the higher authority of Scripture.]
 
And this is what you call us to do, too, Lord God. When we are in the fire, this is the response of faith, “But, I trust in you, O LORD!”
 
What a privilege to be able to think and act in faith in the face of fears. Thereby we can bring you great honor, demonstrating to all around us the power of your grace, the wisdom of your way and the support of your Spirit.
 
Help us to be honest before you about how we feel, lifting our souls to you, God, while always ending with “But, I trust in you, Lord!”
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More from Chapter 63

On March 12, the police again came to our house while I was at school and left a message for me to come to their headquarters.
When I got home from teaching, we gathered up any papers the police might consider incriminating and put them into a brief case. I told Barbara to take it and go to someone else’s house just in case the police came to search ours. Then I went to the police headquarters.
I was surprised to see my coworker Jean there, too. The police took down our identity information and then led us out to a van and drove to my house. I was not concerned about this since we’d already made our preparations.
However, when we arrived and went in, I was shocked and then angry to find that Barbara was still there! She remained calm, however, and after letting us in, while the police were looking through the apartment, she picked up the brief case and walked out. No one stopped or questioned her! I was relieved. A three-star God sighting.
After going to Jean’s house for the same routine, we returned to the police headquarters where they put us in a large cell. Again we were surprised: there was Orin!
For most of us who were rounded up that day, this was the first time to be arrested and the first time to be put in a cell. There was a lot of uncertainty, and therefore fear. Since we all knew that beatings and torture were a standard part of police interrogation, this threat was hanging over each of us.
The policeman who placed us in the cell pointed to a man standing in the middle of the room. “Do not talk with him; he is to stand there for twenty-four hours so he will come to himself and tell us what he knows!”
That may not seem like much of a torture, but think about what it means to have to stand in one place for twenty-four hours: no sleep, no food, no water, no chance to go to the bathroom, no rest for your tired legs and feet. That is a very effective “white” torture, breaking down one’s resistance.
I thought to myself, “Is that just a command, or are you really telling us what will happen to us if we don’t give you the information you expect to get from us?”
As the evening wore on, the police brought in more believers, including Elvina and my former student, Sam. The women were kept on the police side of the cell bars and were given chairs to sit on.
Our cell was sparsely furnished: just one park bench. If they kept us for the night, we would obviously have to sleep on the cement floor.
Sam and I had an appointment for a discipleship lesson that evening, so we sat on the park bench and did our study right there. We were not allowed any personal possessions like a Bible in jail, but this didn’t hamper us at all. Sam’s assignment had been to memorize half a chapter in the NT and we just did our lesson on that chapter.
During this time, a policeman came and took Orin away. When he was back an hour later, he was white as a sheet and shaking. The policeman who brought him in warned us sternly not to talk to him. Later he was able to tell us that he had been beaten, mostly in his chest area, and was in pain.
What a shame that such a gentle, kind, gracious person should be subjected to that kind of treatment. The physical damage done in that brief time would stay with him for the next three years.
Around 10 pm I decided to lay down and get what sleep I could. I had never slept directly on a cement floor before, and I was not surprised at how uncomfortable it was. This was accentuated by not having any pillow.
I also discovered that lying on my side was the most uncomfortable position, because the seam of my blue jeans cut into my leg.
After a while the Lord gave me the idea to take off my shoes, put them together and use them for a pillow. Then, lying on my back and putting my arm over my eyes to shut out the bright lights, I was finally able to fall asleep.
Sometime in the night I was awakened by a policeman nudging me with his foot.
“Come with me,” he said gruffly. I climbed stiffly to my feet, put on my shoes and followed him out of the cell door. We went down the hall to a large room. Glancing at the clock on the wall I saw that it was 3 am.
“Sit down there,” ordered the policeman. I took a seat and looked around. There were four men, one of them seated before a typewriter.
Soon a fifth man came in, a man I knew. I had met him in a pastry shop in the squatter housing section of town. He had come over and wanted to practice his English with me.
“Hello,” he said, shaking my hand, “I am here to translate for you.” He was, of course, an undercover policeman. The locals like to joke that every third person is in the employ of the police as an informer. That may not be far from the truth!
First they took my personal information, including my father and mother’s names—an important means of identification here.
Then they began grilling me with one question after another. My translator had a hard time keeping up, as his English was not that strong, so I just started answering in the local language.
They tried to trick me into admitting my “guilt” of using enticements to get people to become Christians. I explained how ridiculous that was; who would trust someone who was willing to change his faith for money or other gain? They hadn’t thought of that.
One policeman demanded, “Give us the names of your students at the university.”
“Sure,” I said, “Henry, John, Jane…”
“No, no, we want their last names, too.”
“I will not give you those. My students have done nothing wrong. They had no say in getting me as a teacher. If I identify them, then you will call them in and it will be on their records for life. No, I will not give you their names.” I folded my arms in a defiant gesture. The police looked at each other and shrugged.
“Ok, tell us what your assignment is in the Believers in Jesus group.”
This question highlighted a mistake that all of us had made in our relations with the police. Since the word “Christian” had negative connotations in this society, conjuring up for most people the image of a drunken, unclean, dishonest, immoral infidel, we wanted a different identity. So the believers had started calling themselves “Believers in Jesus.”
This worked well for everyday relationships, as people would ask us what that meant and we could then fill it with meaning. But with the authorities it was another matter. This society is what I call a “pigeon-hole society,” meaning they have certain accepted categories everyone must fit in. If they can’t put you into one of these, then you are suspect.
“Believers in Jesus” did not fit into any of the existing categories of Catholic, Orthodox or Protestant, so the police put us into the “terrorist” slot. Later we always used “Protestant” with authorities, but the damage was done.
I had read in the newspaper about this conspiracy idea concerning the “Believers in Jesus” group. Later we found that Harry had inadvertently helped develop this by telling the police that each of us had an assignment, like being in charge of video production or indoctrination or literature. The Lord gave me wisdom in answering this particular question so I didn’t incriminate any of us.
All this time the man at the typewriter had been banging away, recording everything that was said. After about two hours of questioning, the lead interrogator turned to him. “Ok, I think we have enough information; give it to him to sign.”
The typist pulled the papers out of his typewriter, three copies with carbon paper, and handed them to me. “Sign here,” he said.
“I can’t sign until I’ve read it.”
“Ok,” he sighed, “read it.”
It had a lot of technical words in it but I got the gist; it did not incriminate me of anything illegal, so I signed it.
I was led back to the cell, glad that I hadn’t been beaten and was ready for some more sleep because I was drained both emotionally and physically.
 Picture: one of my students with me
 
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