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Our Amazing God

“For great is the LORD and most worthy of praise; he is to be feared above all gods.”
Psalm 96:4
 
You, O Yahweh, are great beyond comprehension: great in wisdom, great in power, great in patience, great in creativity, great in knowledge, great in holiness, great in love, great in mercy, great in justice, great in strength, great in kindness, great in faithfulness.
 
You are truly most worthy of praise and honor and glory and exaltation, “For all the gods of the nations are idols, but the LORD made the heavens” (Ps. 96:5).
 
You stretched out the tent of the skies, driving in its pegs firmly, tying its ropes securely, making it strong and sure: it cannot be changed without your desire.
 
You spoke and the stars became, you shepherded them into galaxies, assigning them their places and names, and at your command they settled there. You spread the galaxies across the vast, empty stretches, forming gigantic patterns, beyond the perception and comprehension of man. You, O Lord, are immense in power, wonderful in wisdom, awesome in creativity.
 
We exalt you in your greatness and your goodness; we bow before you in full and amazed submission, leading us to whole-hearted obedience. We proclaim among the nations, “The LORD reigns!”
 
You are truly God and I prostrate myself before you in awe, in smallness, in humility that flows from a vision of your holiness. You are God, you do what pleases you and it is always good. We tremble before you, the Holy One, the great I AM, the righteous Judge, the faithful Father. You alone are worthy of obedience, of submission, of trust and praise.
 
Prayer: “You reign rightly, O Lord. Reign in me today. Convict me of where I am following my own whims and desires instead of your great goodness; bring me up short, bring me to submission. Amen.”
 
         –From Edified!
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The Ugliness of Sin

 
 
A story taken from chapter 15 of the book “EQUIPPED!”
 
Dave pulled into the driveway and parked. He was looking forward to his lesson with Jack, but when he knocked on the door, there was no response. So, he went around to the back of the house, walked down toward the pond, and found Jack standing knee deep in the water, pulling up lily pads.
 
“Good morning!” Dave called, and Jack waved a muddy hand. “I’ll be up in a few minutes; just let me finish with this patch,” he called.
 
Dave watched Jack reach down deep into the water with both hands, feel around for a bit, then pull up a long dark root. With it came several lily pads and flowers, all tied together by the tuber. Jack then threw them way up on the bank.
 
Pulling up the last bunch with its roots, Jack waded to the shore and dropped it on the bank. As Jack rinsed the mud off his hands at the edge of the pond, Dave asked, “Why don’t you just pull off the pads and flowers instead of messing with those ugly, muddy roots?”
 
“Because lily pads are like sin,” answered Jack. He paused, enjoying Dave’s look of bewilderment. “Just like sin, lily pads are attractive to look at: beautiful, graceful white flowers floating among lovely green leaves. But they are destructive. If left unchecked, lily pads will fill the whole pond, choking out other plants and animals. And under those beautiful flowers and leaves hide ugly things: slime, bloodsuckers, worms and snakes, to name a few!”
 
Jack leaned down and picked up one of the roots he’d thrown up on the bank. He held it up, a dark, gnarled, muddy tuber with long, white ugly stringers hanging from one side, and on the other the slime-covered stems ending in leaves and flowers.
 
“Look at this. Like the root of sin, it’s ugly. See what it’s done to my hands?” Jack held up his free hand, stained a dark purple from the roots. “The last time I did this, one of my fingernails got infected from working with these. And smell this!” He held the root up toward Dave’s nose. Dave pulled back as the odor of rotting mud and slime assailed his nostrils.
 
“Just like the stench of sin uncovered,” said Jack, throwing the root back on the ground. “And like sin, unless you remove it far from where it was growing, it will re-root and grow again. That’s why I’ve thrown these way up on the bank where there is no moisture to help them stay alive.”
 
“Look at this.” Jack held up a stem growing from the root; it was coiled up like a telephone cord. “This young stem was below the surface, slowly straightening out to bring its leaf to the surface. If I’d just picked off the leaves and flowers I could see, within a short time this young leaf would have been up on the surface to replace them, keeping the plant healthy and strong.”
 
Dave stood thinking on what Jack had said. “It’s like confessing in layers, isn’t it?” he said. “If you only get rid of the pads and flowers, not the stem, the shoots and the root, it’s going to grow right back!”
 
“Good application,” said Jack as he turned and walked up to toward the shed, where he turned on the hose to wash the mud off his hands and bare feet. “Confession in layers is the only effective way to root sin out of our lives. And as you read chapter 16 [in “EQUIPPED!”], you’ll see how to apply this to a very specific and significant area of your life.”
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Psalm 25:19-22

 
Psalm 25:19 “See how my enemies have increased and how fiercely they hate me!”
 
[Satan, who is the great angry dragon as in the picture below, is always after me, seeking to trap me, to trip me up, even to take me out–if you, Lord, gave permission. I am too weak to stand against him and the people he uses. But I praise you that you are very aware of my situation and are protecting me moment by moment in your great Power. As your Word says, “The angel of the Lord camps around those who fear Him and delivers them” (Ps. 34:7).]
 
Psalm 25:20 “Guard my life and rescue me; let me not be put to shame,”
 
[Every day I must appeal to you, Lord Jesus, to rescue me from my powerful enemies, from my foes who are too strong for me. Thank you that, instead of shame, you offer us honor–the honor of being your children, of belonging to your Kingdom, of joining you in your work, of keeping on the armor and standing against the enemy, and of living with and for you.]
 
“for I take refuge in you.”
 
[This is my part, I must flee to you, my High Tower, my Rock of Salvation, instead of trusting in myself. I do this recognizing my weakness and need by offering praise and thanksgiving for whatever comes, asking for your help and obeying what I know to be true.
 
You only, Lord God, are my mighty Shield, my high Fortress, my powerful Defender, standing firm against the attacks of the enemy. You are my God, my great Rock in whom I take refuge, my Protector, the Provider of my salvation and my Stronghold. I call to you, O Lord, who are worthy to be praised and so I am saved from my enemies! (Ps. 18:16-19).]
 
Psalm 25:21 “May integrity and uprightness protect me,”
 
[I praise you, Lord Jesus, for the integrity and uprightness of your character and that you have imputed these to us, your children. Help me to live in your integrity (doing what I say I believe) and in your uprightness (obeying what you say is right) so I can give you honor and glory in all.
 
“because my hope is in you.”
 
Praise you that I can do what is difficult and unnatural (like offering the sacrifice of thanksgiving in the midst of trouble), because my hope is in you alone. In you there is the certainty of help, guidance, and protection.]
 
Psalm 25:22 “Redeem Israel, O God, from all their troubles!”
 
[Praise you, O God, for your great act of redemption in the death and resurrection of Jesus Christ. In this you have provided salvation for all in all our troubles.
 
I pray that you will save me from my present troubles, Lord. Help me in the midst of them to act in wisdom and obedience to you and your Word. I praise you now for how you are going to help me today. Amen.
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Living in the Light

 
Thank you, Lord, that, even though it is dark and gloomy out today, within me is your light, your Sonshine to warm and cheer me.
 
I praise you that you want us to have joy: rich, deep, abiding, refreshing and empowering joy. The flow of this joy is dependent on you, and therefore is fully independent of circumstances, feelings, suffering, persecution, weakness or difficulties.
 
However, the acceptance of such joy into our lives is dependent on us: “May the God of hope fill you will all joy and peace AS YOU TRUST IN HIM…” (Rom. 15:13).
 
This joy is like a beam of light shining into a dark room through a hole in a wall; if we stand before it, we are enlightened, warmed and encouraged. If we move away from it, we may see it, but it does not touch us.
 
We have to look away from the darkness of this world and come to you, trusting you to be our Light, our Lord, our Life, and walk in your way. As it says in Proverbs 4:18, “The path of the righteous is like the first gleam of dawn, shining on ever more brightly till the full light of day.”
 
Then Psalm 86:4 gives us another aspect of receiving joy, saying “Rejoice the soul of your servant, O Lord, for I lift up my soul to you.” It is that coming into the light, looking to you, Lord, being transparent, open, honest before you, confessing our worries, fears and frustrations to Him, comparing them to Truth and laying them aside as we stand in the warm, healing light of His presence.
 
This is what Jesus desires for us. In John 15:10,11 He said, “If you keep my commands [don’t worry! Don’t fret! Don’t fear! Trust in me!], you will remain in my love…I have told you this SO THAT MY JOY MAY BE IN YOU and that your joy may be complete [full].” He wants us to be filled with His joy so that we might be light bearers, hope bringers, faith carriers and love givers to all those around us.
 
If I am negative, worried, fearful, discouraged or complaining, I have stepped away from the light, turned from trusting you, Lord, and will blend into the dark shadows of this corrupt world.
 
But if I stand in your light, thinking truth, bringing all the sin and weight that entangles me to you, leaving them at the foot of the cross, then I will stand out sharply from the shadows, a flaming torch of hope and joy spilling light and love to all around me.
 
Lord, help me to live in your light, to rejoice in your goodness, to be filled with joy because I know you, the mighty Creator, the majestic Ruler, the marvelous Shepherd, the magnificent Savior.
 
Help me, Lord God, to let go of the temporary that entangles and tramples my soul; to hold on to the truth that frees, enlightens, equips and brings joy; and help me then to rise above whatever comes, soaring on the wings of truth, borne up by the shining feathers of your grace and goodness.
 
Help me to move forward in your love and light today, drawing ever closer to you so that your joy may fill me to overflowing and bring light and life to all those around me.
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The early 80s

 
Woo, James and I each had our circle of interested contacts and brought them to the meeting. However, the distances people had to travel and the diversity of relationships led us to break into the three natural groups and abandon the larger meeting for a while.
 
Beyond personal contacts, there were two sources of potentially interested people for us: the in country Bible correspondence course and thbroadcast of Transworld Radio.
 
In 1982, I was given thirty names of contacts from the radio station and I wrote to each of them. I was excited to get a letter from one with his telephone number.
 
Since we didn’t have a phone, I went to the little corner grocery store and called Orin from there. He invited us to come to his house and even offered to pay for our way in a taxi, which would have been half of his monthly salary! He really wanted to meet someone who could tell him about Jesus!
 
We drove to the very southern edge of the city, up into the same squatter house neighborhood where my language teacher, Tom lived. Orin’s house was on a high cliff, built on a rock jutting out over the valley. He met us at the entrance of the little road that led to his house and rode in with us.
 
His wife greeted us at the door, where we took our shoes off before entering. She ushered us into the living room and had us sit on the sofa bed there. We knew how to sit in the proper way, drawing our legs up under us and leaning against the cushions behind us. I got the spot of honor in the corner. Barbara sat a bit separately with Orin’s wife. The boys made friends with their two girls and went outside to play.
 
Orin was so shy he could hardly bear to look up at me while we talked. Over tea and refreshments, he told me his story, looking down at the floor most of the time.
 
As a child growing up in a remote village in the eastern part of the country, he had often played in the ruins of an old church there. One day when he was about five years old, he had asked himself two questions: “I wonder, is the God of this church the same as the God of our mosque?” And “If he is, why don’t we keep up the church the way we do the mosque?”
 
These two questions led him on a quest that lasted twenty-nine years and ended with us sitting here together in Orin’s living room. Wanting to know God, he had delved deeply into his religion, memorizing the whole Koran in Arabic. He did not understand it, but was able to make all the appropriate sounds and so became an “imam” or leader of the mosque in his village.
 
He had then gone to the largest city in the country to study engineering at the university. In his spare time he would walk the streets, looking for a tourist who might have a Bible. He did not find any.
 
After graduation he did his military duty, moved to the capital city and got married, still looking for answers to his questions about God. He bought a short wave radio and one day while he was searching for broadcasts in his own language, he came across Transworld’s frequency.
 
He began to listen regularly to their program in his langauage and eventually wrote to them. They, in turn, sent his address to me.
 
I gave Orin a copy of “I am the Door,” the new translation of the Gospel of John. He accepted it gladly and by the next time we met had read the whole thing. He was an eager student and came to Christ during his own Bible reading.
He began to memorize large sections of Scripture in, but later admitted to me that he did not know what they meant. He was memorizing as he did in his old religion, believing there was magical benefit from being able to repeat passages without understanding. It took time for him to grasp that the message was more important than mindless repetition.
 
His wife was at first somewhat open to the gospel, but then turned against him, burning his Bible and books. This conflict waxed and waned during the whole time we knew them.
 
Orin was an engineer and worked as a building inspector for the Directorate of Foundations, meaning he often traveled to inspect construction of mosques, schools and office buildings throughout the country.
 
He gave me a warm invitation to come and visit him at his work place. I was quite hesitant to do this because the Directorate of Foundations was a very religious organization, but Orin insisted I come.
 
He also spoke very openly about his new faith at home and at work, sharing with others from the Scripture portions we gave him. This was to have serious consequences for both of us.
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Psalm 25:16-18

Psalm 25:16 “Turn to me and be gracious to me,”
 
[Praise you, Heavenly Father, Lord Jesus and Holy Spirit, that you turned to me, saved me and you are continually gracious to me–when I deserved the opposite. You are faithful, persistent, wise, graciously at work in my life, for you are the Perfect Father, the Good Shepherd, the Wise Guide and the Great Protector.
 
I thank you for your daily gracious work in the lives of your children, as you provide our needs, lead us in paths of righteousness, protect us from our enemies with your rod, and correct us with your staff.]
 
Psalm 25:17 “for I am lonely and afflicted. The troubles of my heart have multiplied;”
 
[Although I feel lonely and abandoned, this is not true. In the midst of my troubles, you are there, working, protecting, guiding and maturing me. Therefore, I can offer the sacrifice of thanksgiving and honor you. I can praise you in the midst of uncertainty and disappointment, for you are all I need.]
 
“…free me from my anguish.”
 
[In my pain of distress and in the uncertainty of the future, I look to you, to your wisdom, power and love. Your Word tells me that what you allow, including what brings me anguish, is going to be used for good.
 
I need to change my perspective from short term to long term; my understanding from human to divine; and my focus from my comfort to your glory. In these changes and through my praising you in all, you will lessen my anguish, giving me joy in the place of distress and rest instead of turmoil.]
 
Psalm 25:18 “Look upon my affliction and my distress and take away all my sins.”
 
[My distress can surface my sins: impatience, selfishness, anger, rebellion, unbelief, trusting self instead of You, and self-pity. Forgive me for these. Take them away—I praise you that you dealt with them on the cross, wiping my record clean–bringing me further out into the freedom you purchased for me, and for each of your children, if only we will believe your Word and follow you.
 
Guide me today in following you rather than myself, or my desires, or my understanding. You are the God of goodness and glory who rules in wisdom and power. I praise you now for what will come, for how you will protect, for what you will do in and for all things.
 
Today help me to give you honor, for it is your due; to give you love, for it is your desire; to give you obedience, for it is your right. May you be lifted up in my life today before people, angels and demons. Amen.]
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From Conflict to Worship

 
Written in my worship journal some years ago after a run in with a team mate, an example of lifting my soul to God.
 
Lord, as this conflict with my fellow worker seeks to occupy my thoughts, I must think of the many refugees in the Middle East, forced out of their homes, villages, jobs, security, possessions and into uncertainty, insecurity, having physical and emotional needs, without safety or the necessities of life, living in tents, sleeping on the ground, never being sure of food the next day. They are without hope, without peace, without a future.
 
Such a situation is what is actually difficult, not the present uncomfortable conflict I have. Help me to keep this perspective, to remember all you give me every day, Lord: so much good, so much protection, so much provision.
 
Praise you for your rich, warm, positive, supportive grace and love. Help me to walk in the light of your presence all day long so that you may be glorified through the faith you have given me.
 
Give me wisdom in how to proceed in the painful conflict before me, remembering that this person is not my enemy. Thank you so much, heavenly Father, that I am not left in this alone, but have your presence, your help, your wisdom. Instead of fighting to win, to protect my ego and my sense of significance and position, I want to focus on who I am in you, and operate out of a position of weakness and humility, for then your power will be made perfect in my life (2 Cor. 12:9,10). Then I can move through these difficulties with others from the solid foundation of your goodness, grace and greatness.
 
Truly, my soul finds rest in you alone, Lord Jesus. No other can give me what I need, weak and needy as I am. Only you, Lord Jesus are eternal, infinite and perfect. Only you live forever to intercede for me. You have given me worth in creating me in your image, in choosing me before the foundation of the world. You left all in Heaven to live among rebels and liars, and, for your Father’s glory, to die for all and defeat death. You chose me, called me, you transformed me into a new creature, you adopted me as your son, you have given me your Holy Spirit, you invite me to live with you, work with you, to be your partner in all that you are doing. What more could I ask for!?
 
In you I have significance, for you have made me important with your love. In you I have security, for you have made me safe in your power. In you I have meaning, as you have made me a partner in your plans. In you I have purpose, as you have granted me the possibility of giving you glory in everything I do.
 
You, O God, are my King, my Lord, my Shepherd, my Protector, my Guide, my Corrector, my Loving Brother. Praise you, Lord Jesus, that in you I am complete, need nothing else and can live a life of “giving rather than of getting.”
 
Help me to live in the light of all this truth, to be a spring of life-giving water, rather than a sponge taking from others, a source rather than a sucker who is dependent on others’ approval and acceptance. In you I already have all I need and can trust in you with all my heart.
 
Praise you, Lord Jesus, that you are the God of completeness, full of far more than I need, always pouring out grace and goodness and greatness into my life. I give you praise and today want to honor you with all my heart. Guide and direct me, Lord, especially in resolving this conflict, that you may be lifted up before all those around me. Amen.
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Psalm 25:14-15

Yesterday I had technical difficulties that prevented me from posting. My apologies.
 
Psalm 25:14 “The LORD confides in those who fear him; “
[Praise you, Lord God, that your desire is to intimately share your secrets with us, to confide in us, to talk with us through your Word and Spirit. Praise you that in your Fatherhood, you make known to us your heart, your mind, your wisdom.
 
But you have a requirement for this: we must first fear you–that is, care deeply what you think and desire, be in proper awe, seek to obey and live for you, not live for the thoughts or approval of others. This is the emotional aspect of our relationship to you, the impetus to obedience, the motive for doing what is right.
 
To fear you is a condition often cited: “The angel of the Lord encamps round about those who fear him and delivers them” (Ps. 34:8).”The fear of the LORD is the beginning of knowledge, but fools despise wisdom and instruction” (Prov. 1:7). Conversely, the “Fear of man brings a snare, but those who trust in the Lord are safe” (Prov. 29:25). Help me, Lord, to fear you, submitting my thoughts and emotions to your Word and your Spirit.]
 
“he makes his covenant known to them.”
 
[Praise you that as we fear you, you reveal to us the deep truths of your Word as we read and study and meditate on it. You are the great and gracious Giver, ever desiring to share. And you call us to receive your goodness and grace so we can glorify you more.]
 
Psalm 25:15 “My eyes are ever on the LORD,”
 
[May that always be so in my life, Lord, looking to you, thinking of your desires, alert to your Spirit, checking in with you often during the day, following your lead. Praise you for your good and loving ways that I can ever trust.]
 
“for only he will release my feet from the snare.”
 
[Yes, Lord, only you can take me out of the devil’s wiles, temptation’s traps, save me from the sins of my old self, free me from the snares of Satan.
 
Without you I would wander about in the dark, not knowing what makes me stumble; but in you there is always light, ever increasing illumination on the way, and you release my feet from the weight and sin that so easily entangles (Heb. 12:1). Then I can run in the paths of your Truth, pursuing with endurance the race you have set out before me.
 
May I run well today, tired in body, but strong in Spirit and soul, serving you with all my heart. I praise you for what you will bring, for how you will guide, for how I can trust you completely. May my life bring you glory, honor and pleasure today, Lord Jesus. Amen]
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Shepherd’s Delight

Glory be to you, heavenly Father, for you are “good and ready to forgive and plenteous in mercy to all who call upon you” (Psalm 86:5).
 
Psalm 25:11 “For the sake of your name, O LORD, forgive my iniquity, though it is great.”
 
[What a solid basis for appeal, that your Name be lifted up, glorified and magnified. And this is what happens as you forgive my sin–which is great. I do not know a tenth of it, but you know it all and have provided full, complete, free and effective forgiveness–cleansing and changing me from the inside out.
 
In Jesus, my record is wiped clean, my past is changed, my future is sure and secure, full of upward movement into ever increasing freedom. This is so because you are good, you are gracious, you are giving, you are great in mercy and love, kindness and generosity. We are undeserving while your love is unending. We are unworthy, but you are unrelentingly gracious. We are unrighteous in ourselves, but your forgiveness in inexhaustible.
 
Praise be to you, the Great and Glorious God, whose forgiveness flows forever, transforming, teaching and training us to walk in your wonderful way. Today lies before us now, an unknown blank, but you know all that will come and have prepared for us a course to run. You stand ready to lead us into it, walking before us, revealed in your Word, known in your ways, trusted in your goodness.
 
I praise you for what will come, for how you will protect, for how you will act in wisdom and love to weave all into the fabric of your plan for today, a portion of your plan for eternity. We can trust you, the Great and Mighty Shepherd to lead us on the path of righteousness and bring us safely through to the end today, then on to the end of time and the beginning of eternity.
 
In the light of your beautiful character, may continual praise flow to you from my life today through trust, thanksgiving and obedience. Amen.
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Spy ousted

Before our team leader John was expelled, the work of the foundation had brought us into contact with a poor family in an outlying part of the city. The Smiths were an older couple who had seven adult children, five of them living at home.
They showed an interest in the gospel and we made frequent visits there to share more. Over time a number of the family members made commitments to Christ and we began to have meetings in their home on Sundays.
As most of the “old timer” workers had left our city, we were invited to join in with the little local fellowship and brought some of the Smith family with us.
 
As new workers came in, we sat down together to talk about our theological commonalities and differences. If we were going to work together, it was important to know how we were going to blend our methods and beliefs.
 
There was a wide spectrum of theology among the few workers in the country. On one end were reformed baby baptizers and on the other end were charismatics who believed that if you didn’t speak in tongues you weren’t saved.
 
We took the doctrinal statement of our group, which is a non-charismatic group, and went through it point by point with the other workers in the city. Amazingly there was only one point of disagreement, in the area of future events. So after discussing everything, we made an agreement that in the founding of a fellowship, we would teach the basic truths of Scripture, but would not teach for or against charismatic positions. We also agreed that no one would practice speaking in tongues or any other of the charismatic gifts in the fellowship.
 
This agreement allowed us as charismatic and non-charismatics to work well together for many years and to see a strong and solid church begin. Later on, some of the newcomers from other groups were either not informed of this agreement or didn’t accept it and brought in their own teaching, but amazingly had little effect on the local believers theology. But in the long run all worked out.
 
As new workers began arriving in our city, we made it a point to get to know them. The two most significant ones in our future work were James and Woo.
James and his wife, Leanna, were the new leaders for OM. He was English and she Scottish. James and I became very good friends, being kindred spirits in spite of his being charismatic and my not. He was an excellent preacher both in English and the local language and a man of clear integrity.
 
Woo was a Korean brother who had a scholarship to study for his doctorate here, researching the common roots of the local languageand Korean. He was a strong leader with very definite ideas from Korean culture. He also was gifted as an evangelist and had lots of energy.
 
Since Woo could not speak English, when the three of us began to work together in the little fellowship, we had to do all of our planning in the local language. This was complicated by Woo’s pronunciation. He had a great grasp of the grammar, and a marvelous vocabulary, but his pronunciation was lacking. As a result, in the beginning I could only understand about thirty per cent of what he was saying.
When the three of us began to work together with the little fellowship we’d inherited, there were only two regular attenders: a girl who was a college student, and a middle-aged man, named Burt. Both of these had been in the fellowship for several years. A lot of us had doubts about Burt, but no one could put their finger on any specific evidence to confront him with.
 
There was a regular stream of visitors and enquirers, people seeking more information about Christianity, but none of them ever stayed long. We prayed for God’s guidance in the situation and were both surprised and gratified with how God answered.
 
One day Burt brought a fellow to me who had a financial need. This man wanted me to give him $3,000! I told him I was not a bank and could not do it. After fruitlessly putting some more pressure on me he and Burt left and I thought that was the end of it.
 
However, in a couple of days he was back at my door and wanted to talk again. After the formalities of tea and a bit of chatting, he leaned forward and said, “Burt told me that you get $10,000 a month to give to us locals, but that you use it all for yourself. Why can’t you give some of that to me?”
 
“Burt told you that?!!” I sat back amazed. “If that’s true, why am I driving a fifteen year old car, and have an apartment furnished with used things, including the refrigerator?”
 
Now it was his turn to be surprised. “Well, all I can say is that’s what Burt told me!” he repeated.
 
I thought for a moment, “Are you willing to go with me and talk with Burt about this?” I asked.
 
“Sure,” he replied, probably hoping this would lead to some money. We called Burt and set up an appointment. Another worker and I met with them in a tea house, sitting around a small table.
 
“Tell Burt what you told me,” I said to my informer. He repeated the story of my getting money each month to give to Tu.rks. I turned to Burt, “Is that true? Is that what you said?” I asked.
 
“Yes it is. I thought that all you foreigners got lots of money and used it on yourselves.” Burt replied.
 
“Absolutely not and you know it! Look at the economic level I live on. If I had $10,000 a month and used it on myself, I could live like a king.” I paused. “Have you told other people this type of thing?”
 
He admitted that he had been talking to all the visitors and enquirers about this, feeding them lies about money and many other things.
 
I leaned forward and looked Burt in the eyes, “You have, with your own mouth accused yourself. We are putting you under discipline. You are not to come to any more meetings until you show true repentance. Is that clear?”
 
“Yes, but….”
 
I got up to leave. “If you understand, then don’t come.”
As we walked away, Burt stood up and called after us, “But you are supposed to love me!”
 
It was clear that he did not understand biblical love, which would confront and deal with sin. And he did not realize how unloving he had been to so many, chasing them away from truth.
 
We found out that Burt had also threatened seekers and the police themselves later told me that he had worked for them as a spy. In addition, it came out that he was a Jehovah’s Witness and a drug addict. He had been very clever in hiding all this from us over the years, but now the Lord had brought it out.
 
In one way it was understandable that no one ever confronted him. When you are working in a society without any believers, every single person who shows interest is a great encouragement and you don’t want to lose anyone who comes to the meetings. And when one claims to have come to Christ, as Burt did, you tend to overlook a lot of negatives, blinded by the desire to see a church start.
 
Burt’s exit was a significant impetus for progress in the little fellowship. Locals can sense when an attender is suspicious or dangerous, and so they will no longer come. This was obvious with all the seekers who came and went while Burt was attending. Now that he was gone, people felt safer to come to the meetings we held in homes and forward momentum began to build.