Today is the zoning board meeting where my financial future will be decided. Here’s what I wrote about it in my worship journal.
Thank you, Lord, for your words this morning in Matt. 6 to not worry about what I will eat or wear, for you are the one who supplies them to the birds and the flowers, so you will certainly supply them for me. Even if the zoning board denies my request for being able to rent storage places, and thereby cuts off much of my retirement income, you will provide in another way.
I thank you for the reminder this morning that this whole happening is another adventure from you–a perspective I had forgotten: I have been looking at this as a problem, a threat, a danger. Instead it is the doorway to growth, the pathway to giving glory to you, a possibility of resting by faith in you rather than in resolution.
Help me, Lord, to walk in this truth today, resting in your great love, your mighty wisdom, your majestic power. As you were able to orchestrate all in the life of Joseph, of Daniel, of Paul, so you will do in my life.
As David said in Psalm 18 when he was being pursued by king Saul, “I will love you O Lord, my strength. The Lord is my rock, my fortress, my deliverer, my strength in whom I trust. He is my shield, the horn of my salvation, my high tower. I will call upon the Lord who is worthy to be saved, so shall I be saved from my enemies.”
I pray, Lord, for the sake of your glory, answer me out of your love, your faithfulness and your power. I pray that in this situation that your will be done, whatever that is. You have a plan, you know what you are doing, and it will be good.
You have made me to lie down in this green pasture, a place to grow and mature. You are with me as I walk through this valley of the shadow of death, death to my desires, to my situational security, to my comfort. But in this valley I need to fear no evil, for you are with me. Your rod will protect me, your staff will guide me.
I praise you now for what you will do, Lord, for whatever outcome you will bring. Glorify your name, bring honor to yourself, use this happening as a springboard to share more with those around us about the gospel and the greatness of your love for us. I praise your name for whatever you will do.