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A rare sharing from me on the present situation:
 
Comment from Family Research Council on the new “Myths and Disinformation Governance Board” that has just been established, that closely resembles the “Ministry of Truth” in the book 1984.
 
“Initiatives like this [1984] Ministry of Truth should drive us to prayer. Here is a good one from the Psalms: ‘Save, O Lord, for the godly one is gone; for the faithful have vanished from among the children of man. Everyone utters lies to his neighbor; with flattering lips and a double heart they speak…. On every side the wicked prowl as vileness is exalted among the children of man.'” (Psalm 12:1-2,8).
 
But, “the words of the Lord are pure words” (Psalm 12:6). May He “cut off all flattering lips, the tongue that makes great boasts” (Psalm 12:3) and “guard us from this generation forever” (Psalm 12:7).
 
We as believers are the real ministers of Truth. Let us speak it out in love and live it appropriately with power and wisdom that many be brought into the light. Let us pray for those caught in the web of lies that they may come to know Christ.
 
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Opportunities

Thank you, Lord God, that all which will come to us today will come from your hand.
Praise be to you, Lord Jesus, for your wonderful wisdom, working consistently and graciously in the lives of your children, bringing guidance and goodness, challenges and protection.
You know what is best, you know what is right, you know what is loving, for you are the wise and powerful One, that entirely good One whose heart is set on bringing glory to yourself through doing what is good and gracious to us.
I praise you that in your mercy, you bring positive pressure on us to see truth, to come to ourselves and surrender to you. You are the One we can trust, the One who is our refuge and strength, our joy and wisdom, our Loving Shepherd and Warrior King.
Through challenges and adventures (including suffering, tragedy and persecution) you give us opportunities for faith-responses, for glory-giving, for grace-demonstrations, for clenched-teeth praise, for faith-filled obedience. These are chances to fulfill the purpose of our existence: to bring honor to you, to be reflectors of your glory,to exalt your name and your Word above all other things.
I praise you now for another day, another opportunity to live for you, to live by faith, to offer the sacrifice of thanksgiving– and thereby honor you while opening the way so your daily salvation can flow further into my present and future and into the lives of those around me (Ps. 50:23).
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More Autobio

More Autobio
 
In 1986 we got an invitation from one of our fellow workers in Egypt to come and give them input. They had arrived in Cairo just a couple of years before and were struggling with how to begin their work. The letter we got invited us to a “Flight to Egypt.”
 
We had a very positive time, had helpful things to share from our experience and were treated like royalty. Little did we know that this was a foreshadowing of the ministry God had for us down the road.
 
I brought home a “souvenir” from Cairo, one that nestled quietly in my body for several weeks before showing itself. Then at first I thought I had the flu. After a few days the symptoms subsided, but then reappeared.
 
We called our doctor friend and he sent me for a blood test. “Just as I thought,” he said, looking at the results, “Hepatitis A. You need to have full bed rest!” That was more easily said than done, for I had to go out to the university and get permission to not work. They said I needed to go to the government hospital for treatment.
 
Our local friend, Charles, went with Barbara to the infectious diseases hospital to get me admitted. When the preparations were done, Barbara called me to come.
 
I had company at the time so we all got into a taxi to go to the hospital. I brought along my bucket in case I had to throw up; I was continually nauseous, very weak and staggered when I walked.
 
The doctor wouldn’t accept the blood tests I brought because they were from a private lab. I had to have another, official one done. The technician who tried to take my blood had a hard time finding my vein, poking me over and over again. I almost fainted. Finally, I was taken to a room where I could get into bed and Barbara went home.
 
An orderly brought me supper on a metal tray. There were no dishes, just indented areas in the tray for the food. And there was only liquid food: soup, a salad of yogurt and sliced cucumbers and a fruit compost. However, there were no utensils to eat with. It turned out that each patient is responsible for bringing his own silverware, but no one had told me that. So here was my food, but I couldn’t eat it! My response was anger!
 
I went downstairs to the pay phone to call Barbara, but it would not accept the token I had. Again my anger rose up and I flung the token across the room in a fit like a three year old. This tide of anger was a total surprise to me, uncontrollable as it was. Later my doctor friend told me that such anger was not unusual as Hepatitis lowers our inhibitions so that our emotions flow without restraint.
 
That night my roommate, an older man, kept the light and radio on all night. Locals in general are afraid of the dark, for that’s when evil spirits are at work; therefore there’s always a light on in their bedrooms. And the noise of the radio helped to comfort the man, it seems. But it didn’t comfort me!
 
The next day when Barbara came, I forcefully requested that she bring me something to eat! She went home, cooked a nice chicken breast and a vanilla pudding and brought them to me, along with a fork and spoon. I was very thankful.
 
That afternoon there was a loud crying in the hall. Someone had died and the family from the village were doing their death wail. It was not very encouraging for the rest of us with infectious diseases.
 
That night was again a sleepless one, with lights on, radio going, and nurses shouting to each other in the hall.
 
The next day was Sunday. I was having a nice nap in the afternoon when Barbara shook my arm. I opened my eyes to see all seven of the Smith family looking down at me, smiling broadly.
 
They said I was a nice, bright yellow and looked like an Asian. They also said that they were not afraid of getting anything from me. Although they didn’t know it, once I turned yellow, I was no longer contagious.
 
The doctors were glad to have me in the hospital because they could practice their English and German on me. But I was not happy to be there–I wanted to get home where I could sleep. After giving me one intravenous infusion on the first day, they hadn’t done anything for me, so why stay?
 
On Monday when Barbara came with more vanilla pudding, I asked her to tell the doctors that I wanted to go home but when she talked with the main doctor, he was not happy and exclaimed, “Why do you want him to go home?”
 
Barbara replied, “What can I say? He’s my husband and wants to go home. I have to do what he says!” That made perfect sense to the doctor and he agreed to release me.
 
However, when she went to sign me out, it came out that I had not been properly registered. So first she had to get me checked in, then get me checked out. Finally, we were able to go home.
 
Then began a long convalescence with me in bed for several weeks. The good part was that I got to eat lots of vanilla pudding—eating sweet things were part of the treatment–and I had time to read a lot of books—twenty-one, to be exact.
There was also more time to pray and memorize Scripture. As usual, when I was seriously sick, the Lord was calling me aside to teach me new things.
 
The negative side was that I was physically weak and my brain was not working very well. That persisted for three months. Then one day it was like a switch flipped and my mind kicked into gear again.
 
That summer we went back to the States. Since we wanted to have continuity for the boys’ education and for ministry, we usually went for just two and a half months. To do this we had to take the boys out of school early and bring them back a bit late because the German school system spreads out vacation time through the year, making summer vacations shorter.
 
During this time in the US, in spite of my weakness from hepatitis, we did our usual tour of visiting all twenty-one of our supporting fellowships: one on Sunday morning, another in the evening, and another on Wednesday evening.
 
It was a busy time and we came back to our adopted city tired. We dove right in as I went back to work at the university and the boys got back to the German school.
 
Picture: me in the hospital with my IV “friend”
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Psalm 23:6b

First we want to thank all of you who sent kind messages about our 46th anniversary! We appreciate it.
 
Psalm 23:6b
 
“And I will dwell in the house of the Lord Forever.”
 
[What a hope for the future: I WILL be in your presence for eternity.
 
Therefore, death need hold no fear, the shortness of life no panic, the uncertainty of future no threat. We dwell in hope as we press on to what you have for us in this life, and more so in the next.
 
To know where we are going is a wonderful thing. This truth gives us direction, meaning, perspective and peace. I don’t know how those cope with no such hope, who believe that this life is all there is and then nothing. If I believed that I would be in a panic now at 75, slowly losing everything: strength, mental acuity and memory. But instead I have peace, joy and rest in the certainty of the future with Jesus, future that will be more glorious than the sunset in the picture from the internet.
You, Lord Jesus, are the One we yearn for, live for, hope for. And our hope is as certain as your Love, as your Word, your Power, and your present Presence! Glory and honor are due your wonderful Name, Lord Jesus.
 
May my life give you that honor today as I trust you through praise and thanksgiving in and for all—even before I see your goodness and mercy.
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Psalm 23:6

Psalm 23:6 “Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life;”
[You, Lord, constantly pour out goodness and mercy on your children; it is a certainty that in each situation you are providing these in our lives. Very often, though, we cannot see them at the moment– but when we can look back at a difficult situation, there they are: goodness and mercy were following us!
An example is the disappointment I had recently. After waiting two weeks for an overhead door installer to come, he only did half the job and then left, saying, “I’ll be back in about two weeks!” I could see no goodness and mercy in that! But, the next day, while talking to one of my disciples, I found that he had worked as a door installer and he offered to come and finish the job for me.
We both profited: he needed some extra income, I needed the help; plus he knew where to get the springs I needed at a very reasonable price. We both saw God’s goodness and mercy in the first man not finishing the job.
This pattern has been and will be true throughout the whole of our lives with you, Lord Jesus. You are always faithful, you are consistently good and you are deeply merciful– whether we can see it at the moment or not. Praise be to you my wonderful Shepherd!]
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Psalm 23:5c

Psalm 23:5c Truly, “My cup runs over.”
[You, Lord, give us what we need–and far more. What I actually need is air, water, food, clothing, shelter and love. But when I look at all you have given me, it is way beyond that, much more than what I need spiritually, intellectually, emotionally, physically, socially, financially and in every other realm. And we have certainly experienced this in the richness of  our marriage—today is our 48th wedding anniversary
Now it is my privilege and responsibility to share these with others, to let your blessings flow through me to those around me. For example, the joy you give me should bring joy to others as I am kind, thoughtful, positive and helpful to them, whether I feel like it or not.
The material provisions you’ve given I should be sharing around. The spiritual riches you give I should also be passing along, for, in your Kingdom, getting and hoarding is not the norm, but receiving and giving.
So, when we go to church on Sunday, we can go filled with the Lord’s riches and grace as well as insights from our quiet times during the week.
 
Then we are ready to give to others as they have need, as well as to receive what the Lord may have for us. May we continually overflow with the wonder of our walk with our Shepherd, Jesus, bringing encouragement, hope and perspective to all around us.]
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More from Nancy

Wednesday, it’s time for another chapter from the life of Nancy.
 
THE CAGE FIGHT
 
“If your joy does not return within three months, something will need to change.” Bill Tartar, the president of our agency, and his wife, Mae, spoke to me in love. It was the spring of 1985, and the Tartars had traveled to see all the workers in Pakistan. Hidden away in this remote Islamic town, they had discovered the real reason for their journey.
 
Serving Christ here in west Pakistan with legendary nurse, Earlene Voss, had been my dream. In the fall of 1984, after completing Urdu language study, I joined her and threw myself into the work and people of this small city.
 
From morning till evening, we labored. Earlene served the population through her medical and tuition programs. Meanwhile, I taught eleven Bible classes a week in Urdu to women and children. We had a half-day off per week to recuperate.
 
By Christmas of that year, I was exhausted and struggling. Life had begun to feel like a cage fight with multiple opponents.
 
Culturally, I was naive. “Why did you tell that to so-and-so? Now she’ll tell the whole neighborhood.” I didn’t know the rules.
 
“Oh, no, it’s not uncommon for women to put glass in their husband’s food to kill them.” No one was innocent.
 
“Stop screaming when you play basketball with the girls. Men on the street are complaining.” Everything was sexualized.
 
My spiritual immaturities bubbled to the surface: anxieties, fears, undealt-with-sin, deficiencies in theology. In the cage, Satan weaponized them against me.
 
I wielded God’s weapons of prayer and the Word but often faltered at the new combat level. I was lonely for a friend my age who understood me and accepted me as I was. Someone I could relax with.
 
Under all the stress, my sleep became disturbed. Earlene prescribed low doses of valium to help me sleep, but I felt guilty taking the drug, so it was unhelpful.
 
In March of 1985, through tears that flowed freely throughout the days, I wondered if I was losing my mind. Then I remembered that people who are insane don’t think they are, and I comforted myself in this thought.
 
As I pondered the three-month deadline for joy given by the Tartars, it loomed ahead like a prison sentence. The escape fantasy I had often seen in my mind kicked into gear.
 
Early the morning after the Tartars had left, I slipped into the clinic where Earlene was working. “I’m going to see the Tartars” I announced
 
Wrapped in my chador (sheet-sized covering) with my head lowered, I scurried down the dusty street to the bus stop. Past shops of men ogling. Past the mosque that broadcasted anti-American sermons. Past donkey carts and women in burkas aside open sewers. I boarded a bus and left.
 
A three-hour bus ride to the north, the Tartars called for an end to the fight, “You have earned six months of leave. Why not take it?”
 
God had slid the lock off the outside of the cage, and I was free to go. In His time, and not a minute sooner, He had lovingly marked me for the rest of my life. I sought the LORD, and he answered me and delivered me from all my fears. (Psalm 34:4 NIV)
 
Epilogue. Nancy recovered and went back to serve many more years in Pakistan.
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Psalm 23:5

Psalm 23: 5b, “You anoint my head with oil;”
[Shepherds put oil on the heads of their sheep to keep away pesky insects, to heal wounds, to refresh and so when the sheep butt heads, they will slide by and not be badly injured.
Oil here can represent many things: the Holy Spirit, protection, blessing and healing. You, Lord, provide for us all these blessings and more in your gracious giving, pouring out continually from your unending, inexhaustible store of riches.
As it says in Ephesians 1:2 “Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ who HAS blessed us with All spiritual blessings in heavenly places in Christ Jesus.” Ephesians goes on to detail some of these blessings:
 
–He chose us before the foundation of the world.
–He has made us holy and without blame before Him in love.
–He predestined us to be adopted as His children.
–It was His good pleasure to adopt us.
–We are accepted in the Beloved, Christ.
–In Him we have redemption through His blood.
–We have the forgiveness of ours sins according to the riches of His endless grace.
— And in 1 Peter 1:3 it says, “His divine power has given us everything we need for a godly life….” ]
Truly, “My cup runs over!” Because God is incredibly, infinitely good.
 
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Psalm 23:4

“You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies.”
As our good Shepherd, you bring us into positive places to graze. On the edges of the pasture may lurk wolves, bears, lions, or the great serpent, Satan. Their presence, however, does not need to disturb us, for you are our all-powerful protector.
 
No one can skirt you, no one can thwart your plans or purposes. Therefore we can ignore the threats of the enemy and quietly, peacefully feed on what you have given, resting in your goodness, greatness and glory.
You are our good Shepherd, our great Guide, our Warrior King who has already defeated the enemy. As we remain in the shelter of your Word, your Way, your Wisdom, praising you in and for all, we are safe from true harm.
 
You may lead us through many challenges, but in these you will protect and carry us through as we follow you. Help us, your little lambs, to walk with you today.
 
Picture: the enemy is like a lion, our Lord is our protecting shepherd.
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In 1984 we got a letter from Elise, a woman who had been searching for spiritual input. Her sister had gotten an offer for the Bible correspondence course and gave it to Elise. Through that she found our address and wanted to meet with us.
 
We called the telephone number she sent us in a letter and her sixteen year old daughter, Sarah, answered, speaking to Barbara in high school German. She was very relieved to find that we spoke Turkish.
 
This contact proved to be the most significant one in the fellowship. After she came to the Lord, Elise proved to be a real evangelist and eventually was instrumental in seeing twenty-three of her relatives become believers!
 
About the same time, the Smith’s oldest daughter, Alyn, introduced us to a man she was interested in. Ivan was a short, aggressive fellow, seemingly a hard worker who showed an interest in the gospel.
 
Although he had only a third grade education, Ivan was bright and was soon explaining the meaning of the gospel to the rest of the Smith family more effectively than we could. Ivan himself made a commitment and began attending the Sunday meetings at the Smiths. Soon he and Alyn married.
 
Another fellow, Harry, came through the correspondence course, and Dan began to disciple him, pouring lots of time and effort into his life. Harry showed signs of being a potential leader.
 
Then some months later, a worker from Germany came looking for nationals to work in his literature ministry, and sought out Harry. Dan talked with this man and warned him that Harry was just a young believer and needed time to mature before he could be put in charge of a foreign-funded venture. But the man did not listen.
 
We found out later that this was his way in many countries. He operated independently of any workers on the ground, taking one or two believers to himself and working exclusively with them. It led to the distribution of the man’s literature, but to the unhealthy separation and isolation of believers.
 
At this point our little group was meeting in homes, often in a different place every week. Although home meetings were not illegal, many people believed they were, and felt uncomfortable. As the culture was building oriented, it seemed strange to seekers that we had no official meeting place.
 
The Lord provided a solution to this through a friend who knew the priest in the Vatican Embassy. He allowed us to meet on their property, making it much easier to invite seekers.
 
One day after the meeting during the teatime, Barbara noted that each local was talking to a foreigner. The believers were not mixing with each other. This was not a new problem. Therefore, we decided to have foreigners attend, encouraging the locals to interact with each other.
 
One Sunday afternoon when we arrived at the gate of the Embassy, the head priest was there and took me aside. “This is the last Sunday you will be allowed to meet here,” he said,
 
“Why is that?” I asked.
 
“The authorities have come and told us we cannot accept you.”
 
“What would be the reason for that?” I exclaimed, “This is not local property, this belongs to the Vatican. This decision is contrary to the law!”
 
“Ah, my son,” said the priest, “Here the law and the authorities are two very different things!” He was right, of course, and that was the end of our meetings at the Embassy.
 
In one way I was thankful, for we had noticed that after our meetings, the two priests living at the Embassy would come down and mix with us. In the end we realized that they were trying to draw the believers into Catholicism. Separation from that was good.
 
The Lord had other things in mind for us; an Austrian believer was able to get permission for us to meet in a school. That was even better, because it was more centrally located and was guarded, making the believers feel even more secure.
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