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Psalm 34:19-20

 

Psalm 34:19 “A righteous man may have many troubles, but the LORD delivers him from them all….”

[Being righteous in you, LORD, does not protect us from trouble–I think of Job and his trials, of Daniel and the multiple life-threatening crises he experienced. But as you were clearly with each of them, so you are with each of us in every challenge and will properly deliver us from every difficulty when the proper time comes.

You may deliver us at the moment, or in a while, or years later or at death; you know the best timing and we can trust you in it. I think of Abraham waiting for a son, of Joseph waiting to get out of prison, of Elisha’s flood of difficulties, of Isaiah, Jeremiah and Jesus in what they suffered. You were with each and delivered them at the right time and in the right way. Praise you for this promise which I personally can trust, even as my wife is in the midst of a distressing illness with no end in sight.]

Psalm 34:20 ‘he protects all his bones, not one of them will be broken.”

[Here is a clear reference to how you protected Jesus in His beatings, crucifixion, anguish and death. In spite of all the physical abuse he took, you kept his bones whole–every single one. You are the God of detail, of power, of total awareness.

And so you also work in our lives. I think of the many times you have spared me in driving, times when I should have had an accident because of my own poor choices, but you sovereignly intervened and kept us safe.

You are God, you are King, you are wise and you are powerful. You are worthy of our trust. I surrender myself to you this day, willingly giving my life into your hands again.

Fill me with your Spirit, may He overflow onto to all whom I meet today. May you be honored and exalted in what I think, say, do and accomplish. May I praise you in and for all things. May your name be lifted up by my responses to whatever comes. I praise you for the privilege of exalting you in the midst of suffering. Amen.

 

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Psalm 34:18

Written in 2014
 
Psalm 34:18 “The LORD is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.”
[You, Lord, know the heart of each person; you see when we are wounded and overwhelmed, cringing and crushed by the pains of life. And you are there with us, working in us, drawing us to yourself, comforting and supporting us.
We are by nature stubborn and independent, rebellious and stiff-necked, so we often selfishly refuse to come to you, thinking we have the answers to the questions of life. Surrender often comes only when we are crushed and broken by circumstances (often of our own making) and our inability to cope. It is then, in that trauma, that we see our true state of total weakness, of dependence on you, our sinfulness and rebellion, our need for forgiveness and salvation. You pin us down to help us face reality.
This is exactly what you did in me to bring the initial surrender, shutting me into a corner at the end of the earth on an island off the coast of Siberia. There I was powerless to escape–and I praise you for it, for with that dark experience you ushered me into the Kingdom of Light.
Lord, do continue to bring whatever breaking is needed so that we may surrender to you more deeply and be a more useful instrument in your gracious, powerful hands.
I thank you for what we are going through with Barbara’s illness and depression right now and for how you will use it for good. You are trustable, you are gracious, and you are wise.
 
Therefore, we can rest in your love, offering the sacrifice of thanksgiving every day, thereby honoring you and opening the way for you to show us the salvation of the Lord. This salvation could be giving us grace to endure this cross, or it may be bringing healing. Whatever it is, we praise you for it now, for your way is always good.]
 
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Developing Leaders

Following the drama of arrests, trials and acquittal, our attention was now focused on developing leaders for the fellowship, a long and difficult task.
 
If you take the average person who comes to Christ from a working or middle class background in the western part of the world, they are at what I call ground zero in their lives. They are definitely in need of a Savior but are able to function pretty well in every day life.
 
In contrast, most of the believers in our little fellowship had come from disadvantaged backgrounds. Many were fringe people who didn’t fit well into society to start with. This meant that instead of starting at zero, they were at what I judged to be minus twenty-two!
 
There were seemingly endless things they had to learn relationally, emotionally, intellectually, economically and spiritually in order to come to a reasonably healthy place in life.
 
The fact that many of these early believers were from the fringes of society was not surprising. They were the people who had little to lose in becoming a follower of Christ. Solid working class or middle class people risked the loss of jobs, families and positions if they were to leave the local religion and become followers of Jesus.
 
One example of one such person was Abraham. He as a fourteen-year old high school dropout when we met him. His mother was the second wife, meaning his father had two wives at the same time, one legal, one not. And this meant that Abraham’s family got only “scraps” of time and money from the father.
 
When Abraham’s mother became a believer, the father completely abandoned the family of five children, age sixteen down to two year old twins. At the time Abraham was working as an apprentice for a glazier, a very low paying, basically dead end job.
 
However, he was open to spiritual things and after accepting the Lord, he proved to be a “thirsty” disciple. He began having a regular quiet time and pursued input from several of us.
 
Then he took a very significant step: he forgave his father for all the pain, rejection and abandonment he’d given Abraham and his siblings.
 
To forgive is absolutely antithetical to both the culture and religion of this country. To forgive is viewed as a weakness. If you are hurt, you cut off the relationship and nurture hatred for that person for the rest of your life. Abraham , however, rejected his culture in favor of a biblical worldview. Forgiving his father set him free from the past and shot him ahead both spiritually and practically.
 
He went back to high school while continuing to work part time to help support his mother and sisters. He became one of the leaders of the church plant, the youngest and in the end the most mature of the original members. By the time he was nineteen, he had become one of the elders.
 
After graduating from high school, Abraham set his sights on a university education. However, in the educational system in the country, in order to enter university, you had to pass a very difficult test that is designed to keep people out. The score you got on this test determined what subject you would study and what school you would attend. You could state your preference, but without a very high score, you had very little chance of getting your wish.
 
Everyone goes to special tutoring schools for one or two years to prepare for this exam but Abraham had neither the money nor the time to do that. Instead he studied on his own while working full-time and serving as a leader in the church.
 
When he got the results of his exam, we all rejoiced with him, for he not only got the subject he wanted to study–graphic arts–but would study at the university he wanted, right in his home city! It was a miracle that flowed from Abraham’s valuing and obeying God’s Word and from doing his part in diligent preparation.
 
He went on to graduate second in his class and then married the girl was first in the class and whom he had led to the Lord. He became a published artist, an assistant pastor and later the director of the national children’s ministry as well as a church planter. All this was accomplished by a boy who, by every appearance, had been condemned to a life of mediocrity and poverty. When a life is surrendered to God, He lifts it up in every area.
 
There were others who also persisted in obeying the Lord, abandoning their natural worldview for a biblical one and they are also are now leaders in churches and ministries. Transformation comes on every level when we surrender to Him.
Picture: Abraham’s mother with Barbara
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Beauty in the Fall

It was Fall when I wrote, “Praise you, Lord, for the beauty of the trees as the leaves are now at the height of their color. Every corner we turn on the road reveals amazing scenes of blazing reds and blinding yellow, with certain trees standing out in special brilliance.”
 
These trees are a picture of what different believers are like. When things are going well, all look about the same in their beautiful greens. But when difficulties and pressure come, like the frost of Fall, the underlying beauty of belief is revealed.
 
Similar to these frosted trees, some believers stay green, some have a touch of color and some turn brown, while others stand out gloriously, glowing, lit from within in by their reds and yellows.
 
These glowing trees are like believers who respond in faith when things are tough. As it says in 1 Peter 1:6,7 “…for a little while you may have had to suffer grief in all kinds of trials. These have come so that the proven genuineness of your faith…may result in praise, glory and honor when Jesus Christ is revealed.”
 
When our faith is proven true under pressure, we give glory to God at that moment, and He will then give it back to us when we arrive in heaven. There we will glow in His love and share in His honor: “When Christ, who is your life, appears, then you also will appear with him in glory” (Col 3:4).
 
Knowing the beauty faith brings, and how this honors God can help us to respond in trust when things are difficult. In offering the sacrifice of thanksgiving, we bring a glow to us and glory for God. In contrast, the self-indulgence of complaining gives us drabness and dishonors His name. Which will we choose? “He who offers the sacrifice of thanksgiving honors me….” Ps. 50:23
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Psalm 34:17

 
 
Psalm 34:17 “The righteous cry out, and the LORD hears them; he delivers them from all their troubles.”
[Praise be to you, the Sovereign, Infinite and Powerful God, who hears every prayer of every one of your children and answers every one in the best way. Praise you that you act at the right time to deliver us from all our troubles–the timing may be very different than we’d like, but we can be confident that you will act just when we need it.
In sending Jesus to suffer, die and rise again, you have delivered us from the most fundamental of our troubles: rescuing us from the kingdom of darkness, from the dominance of sin, from the danger of eternal death, from the devil’s deceit and distortions.
We stand now as your beloved children, free of shame, of condemnation, of hopelessness, of meaninglessness. We stand in your presence, in your light, in your love, in the new life you have given us. We stand equipped for the battle, able to be more than conquerors in whatever comes to us, as we stand firm in the armor you have provided.
You have supplied us with wisdom, patience, love and grace. You have made your Holy Spirit dwell within us. You have given us your wonderful Word. And we live in the certainty that you will triumph in all as you carry us on with you to the end of history, giving us each a significant role to play in your glorious plan.
You have saved us from all the great troubles we were born into in our original sin. And you will save us out of all the myriad of troubles that plague us in this warped world of woe, using each one to mature and mold us into the image of Christ–as we respond with praise and trust in all.]
Yes, you, Lord God, the faithful Father, the delightful Deliverer, the lavish Lover of our souls, are bringing us out from all our troubles at just the right pace. To you be honor and glory today as we live in the light of your Grace, rejoice in the goodness of your Love and rest in the certainty of your Promises.
Keep our eyes on the Truth, Lord; help us to keep on the armor, to keep up the shield of faith, to keep on being people of truth and trust because we know you, the Lord of love and life, the God of goodness and grace. May you be exalted in all that I do today.
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Psalm 34:15-16

Psalm 34:15 “The eyes of the LORD are on the righteous
and his ears are attentive to their cry;”
 
[Praise be to you, Lord, for your rich faithfulness, for your persistent love, for your deep commitment to your children. Praise you that you always watch over us, that you always hear every prayer, every word, every thought. Praise you that you are totally aware of what is going on in our lives.
 
We can rest in your love which is strong and deep and powerful. We can trust you to hear us whether we sense it or not, and to work out what is best, whether we understand it or not.]
 
Psalm 34:16 “the face of the LORD is against those who do evil, to cut off the memory of them from the earth.”
 
[What a stark contrast: from total acceptance to total accusation, from total redemption to total rejection. In your great Love, Lord, you hate evil and will deal with those who choose to live in it.
 
The greatest evil is to reject Jesus and His offer of forgiveness. Out of that rebellion and pride flow every other evil. You will righteously end the lives of all such rebels and wipe out even the memory of them. Praise you for your rejection of evil so that it may not continue in Heaven.]
 
Thank you, Lord, for your goodness which defends us in difficulties, permeates our problems and transforms our troubles into the next step up as we praise you for who you are and what you are doing in them–even though we cannot see any good at the moment.
 
I praise you for allowing the present problems in our lives. I ask that out of your love and wisdom, your righteousness and grace that you give us a fresh “Job experience” (Job 38-42) of seeing your greatness and glory so that we may continually bow before you in humility and confess, “I have nothing to say; you are right Lord, praise you for what you are doing.”
And I praise you now for whatever you will do this day, Lord, for you know what is best and have the wisdom and power to bring it to pass!
 
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Psalm 34:11-14

Psalm 34:11b, 12 “I will teach you the fear of the LORD. Whoever of you loves life and desires to see many good days,”
 
[Here are the results of fearing the Lord: we will live longer (less stress, less broken relationships, less worry, less harmful lifestyle practices), and we will have many days where we have lots of good flowing into our lives. Who doesn’t want that? God definitely wants to such goodness for us. He works to motivate us to desire to fear Him, so that more goodness will flow to us. Fearing Him is caring deeply what He thinks and obeying Him in awe of His marvelous might and majesty.]
 
Psalm 34:13 “keep your tongue from evil”
 
[The first element of the fear of the Lord is not speaking what is evil. No complaining (a big evil in God’s eyes because we are saying He’s not always good), no critical condemning statements, no gossip, no negatives, no cutting others down, no manipulation, no sarcasm, and no selfish boasting–to name a few common to all of us.]
 
“and [keep] your lips from speaking lies.”
 
[Only truth. No more telling ourselves lies (“Poor me,” “Everything is terrible,” “No one loves me,” “Nothing ever goes right.” “I can never win,” “Whatever I do, it’s wrong.”). No more telling others lies, no matter how polite they seem (“I’m fine” when I’m not. Instead of saying, “I’m having a difficult time, but am trusting God in it,” which is an honest answer that brings glory to Him and may open up meaningful conversation). And definitely no intentional lies to protect self or gain advantage.]
 
Psalm 34:14 “Turn from evil and do good;”
 
[Reject darkness and live in the light. I must measure my motives, thoughts, words and actions by Scripture, by what Jesus did and commanded. I must avoid evil at all costs, spotting it early on and rejecting it in favor of doing what God deems good. Confessing ahead forearms and forewarns me; I need God’s help to see evil in every area–before it becomes thought and then action–so I can bring Him glory.]
 
“seek peace and pursue it.”
 
[Not just seek to avoid conflict, protecting myself, but to wholeheartedly run after true peace, push to get peace, beginning with forgiving those who have hurt us, returning good for evil, blessing those who persecute us, and being loving to those who are obstinate. Lord give me wisdom in how to do this well.]
 
Praise you, Heavenly Father, for sending your Spirit to give us your Word: clear, deep, rich, refreshing and transforming. Help me to walk in the light of your Word, in the fear of the Lord today, taking your Word as the measure of what is right and wrong. Alert me to when I am not doing so, and help me to get back onto the path immediately. I praise you now for how you will help me today.]
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Psalm 34:10-11

Psalm 34:10 “The lions may grow weak and hungry, but those who seek the LORD lack no good thing.”
[Here is an earlier truth repeated (“Fear the LORD, you his saints, for those who fear him lack nothing”), this time with an example and action.
Even powerful and wild lions can grow weak when they don’t find food. In comparison, those who look to God, especially those who are weak, who actively seek Him, who intentionally follow Him—will not lack any good thing. This includes provision of needs for life (physical, emotional, relational) as well as the privilege of experiencing difficulties to make us grow and deepen spiritually, equipping us and providing us opportunity to give God glory.
Help me to live this way, Lord, to seek you and your wisdom in every circumstance, every decision, every relationship, every moment. Help me to think, obey and live Truth, keeping on the armor of God, embracing all that is right and good, taking up my cross daily, praising you in and for all, and following you with all my heart. I praise you ahead of time for how you are going to help me in seeking and fearing you throughout today.
Psalm 34:11 “Come, my children, listen to me;”
[This is God calling us to be teachable like children who are more honest than adults in recognizing their limited abilities, their dependence on their elders, and are open to input. Little children tend to be eager to learn and accept guidance. So should we be, always ready to hear from God rather than proudly relying on our own tiny thoughts and warped wisdom.]
I praise you, Lord Jesus, for how you will provide all I need, in your faithfulness protecting, guiding and sustaining me through whatever you allow.
I praise you now for your goodness yet to be displayed as we personally walk through various valleys, like the valley of the shadow of depression. Glory be to your name as you help me learn to walk in the fear and awe of you, actively seeking you and your will in each instance, praising you in and for all things. Amen.
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Reveling in the Beauty of God

 
I praise you, Lord Jesus, that, in spite of things not going the way I desired yesterday, you gave wisdom and grace to respond with thanksgiving and surrender, to move through with your grace and wisdom, not giving into fear or disappointment or self-pity. the truth is, You are the One who ultimately decides what will actually happen, whether it lines up with my desires or not, so I thank you for your chosen goodness which you constantly pour out on me.
I praise you for your Eternal Goodness, your Rich Wisdom, your Almighty Strength, your Perfect Righteousness, your Exacting Justice, your Marvelous Mercy, your Great Grace, your Lavish Love, your All-pervasive Presence. I thank you for your Inscrutable Triuneness, your Tender Care and your Flawless, Unchanging Character.
You, Lord God, are the One to be worshiped, to be praised, to be trusted and obeyed. Forgive me for being too absorbed in the details of life and therefore not reveling and basking more in the beauty of your Being, in the light of your Love, in the loveliness of your Life, in the goodness of your Grace. Help me to spend more time “smelling the flowers” of your beautiful, gracious goodness.
You are worthy of honor, exaltation, magnification and thanksgiving in all circumstances. Your sovereignty, your wisdom, your love, your grace all insure that you are moving the world to a conclusion of redemption, reclamation and re-creation, where evil will be eliminated and holiness will rule along with love and grace.
Therefore, we can trust you in all that comes with your permission, we can think your Truth, see with your eyes, give you glory in thanksgiving and praise, and be carried by you to the conclusion you have planned.
I praise you for the joy of knowing you, for the salvation of your love, the security of being in your hand, the significance of being your child, the certainty of our future. To you be glory and honor, praise and exaltation, for you are worthy, O Lord. You are the Creator, you are our King, you are our Shepherd, you are our God–you alone are Lord.
So, I bow before you now and surrender to you all you have given me. To you be glory in my life today, O Lord God, Heavenly Father, Lord Jesus, Holy Spirit. May all around me see you at work in my life; may your Spirit overflow from my being and touch all I meet. May you be the exalted and extolled One today. Amen.
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Another Arrest

In January of 1989 our team had a visit from a psychiatrist who did counseling for our group. After our weekly prayer meeting he came back with us to our home.
 
As we walked up the stairs to our apartment, two men seated on the flight above got up and came down to meet us. One of them presented me with a paper summoning me again to the police headquarters.
 
“Do you have a car?” he asked. When I said I did, he said, “Drive us to the headquarters.” So off we went. It was about 4:30 pm when we got to the police headquarters. They took me downstairs to a large office where there were several policemen. Most of these men I knew from my previous “visits” and they all greeted me.
 
After a while their boss came in. “Well,” he said, “It’s time for me to go home. We’ll have to talk tomorrow morning. If we weren’t already acquainted with you, we’d give you accommodations here, but since you are well known to us, I’ll let you go home for tonight. Be back here in my office by 9 am tomorrow!”
 
I was glad to leave and hurried home for supper and a visit with our guest. He had to leave the next morning so this was our last chance to be with him. During our discussion, he gave us good advice about dealing with Barbara’s mother.
 
Also, Barbara and I had planned a trip for the next day to visit Tom, my old language tutor. His job had taken him to another city. Our tickets were for a bus leaving at 1 pm, so we prayed that I’d be back from the police in time to make the bus.
 
When I got to the police headquarters the next morning and told the policeman on duty where I was supposed to go, he laughed. “No one gets to go there unless they’re brought in,” he said.
 
“Well, I was brought in yesterday, and this officer told me to come see him this morning!” I handed him my summons paper. It took about twenty minutes to convince him to let me go downstairs for my appointment. When I finally arrived, fifteen minutes late, the officer was none too happy.
 
He put me in a room to wait. Other policemen wandered in, bringing me tea and staying to chat. We visited for a good two hours. They asked me what I actually believed, and I was able to lay out the whole gospel for them. I offered to bring them each a New Testament. They laughed. “We have a whole storage room full of ones that we have confiscated,” they said.
 
Then one leaned forward, “What do you think about these accusations that we torture people here?”
 
I paused for a quick prayer. This required a delicate answer. “Well, you know that I’ve been here for a couple of visits. During that time I heard and saw the results of what was done to people.”
 
“Well, what else can we do?” one sighed, “We’ve got to get them to talk somehow! Our people only know how to be truthful if you put a little pressure on them.”
 
Just then the boss came in and noticed me. “Why is he still here?” he asked. “Take him down to the prosecuting attorney for publications. Show him the brochure this prisoner has printed.”
 
It was only then that I realized they had called me in because of the booklet I’d produced on the rights of believers. So off we went to another part of the city. The prosecutor looked through the booklet and tossed it on his desk.
 
“We can’t arrest him for this,” he said, “It’s mostly just our own laws. It’s not illegal to publish those!”
 
“No, no, we can’t just let him go like that!” objected one policeman.
 
“But there’s nothing to accuse him of,” replied the Prosecutor. He waved his hand at me, “You can go.”
 
The policeman began objecting again, but I didn’t wait to hear what he said. I walked out the door, ran down the steps, hailed a taxi and made it to the bus station just a few minutes before our bus was to leave! And there was faithful Barbara, sitting in the bus, patiently waiting for me. Her trust in God was wonderful.
After our return from this trip, Orin called to tell me that he was being reassigned to a new place in a small city. In actuality, he was being exiled, punished for his faith in Christ and for not being willing to return to the local religion.
“I’m going there to find a place to rent. Would you come with me?” he asked. I agreed and drove him three hours to his new assignment. Orin told me that he would be working in a car repair shop. This was very clearly an attempt to get him to resign, demoting an experienced engineer to work as a clerk in a small repair garage in a little backwater town.
 
The place was small, provincial and had only one main street. We found a suitable apartment on the edge of town. Later, when Orin moved, I went with him again and helped carry all his stuff up the four flights of stairs. For the next three years we went once every five weeks to visit and encourage him and his family.
 
His new boss humiliated him further by not giving him any work to do. Orin just sat at his desk all day. But being a diligent man, he was not idle. Through his daily observations, Orin discovered a purchasing scam going on. The boss was buying many supplies from his relatives’ shops without first putting out the required bids.
 
Orin reported this to the supervisor in the capital city. An inspector was sent out and confirmed the scam, but joining forces with the boss, tried to make it look as if this were Orin’s doing!
 
In the end Orin was demoted again, this time to changing oil in vehicles, which gave him more than enough to do. In an honor-based society like this one such humiliation and degradation are bitter pills to swallow. Orin struggled with it, and at times was angry with me for “causing” this trouble in his life.
 
After three years, he was eligible for a transfer and God graciously answered our prayers by moving him into a good office job in a larger city. Even there he was viewed with suspicion, but Orin stuck it out for two more years until he reached retirement age.
 
Then, while we were on furlough, he moved to the biggest city in the country and disappeared. Our efforts to locate him have been futile. We continue to pray for him and know that the Lord is watching over him and his family.
Picture: house fellowship meeting with Orin on the far left, I am on the far right.
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